If you’re reading this, you’re probably thinking ‘Wow, this will be such a depressing post’ but I assure you that it won’t be as sad as you are expecting. I’m sure we’ve all been disappointed in life in some way or another. Whether it be a broken relationship, toxic friendship, or not getting into that class or job that you really wanted, disappointment can cause sadness and even complacency, if you allow it to. Taking that feeling of dismay and turning into self reflection and motivation for positive action is the ultimate way of how to deal with the cards dealt.
The main problem I faced this year was not getting into a general chemistry class I wanted to take this semester. In addition to the fact that I needed to take this class for my bachelor’s degree, I also tried for a good year and a half to get into this specific class. But something was different about this semester. Not only was I able to get on the wait list, I had a good feeling that I was going to get in. Even though the lecture section I was able to get was at 6:30 am-8:30am MWF and 8:00am-9:30am TTh, the earliness was not going to deter me from taking the class. I entered the classroom and never have I been more anxious. As the professor was calling down names from the waitlist, she explained that she had only 4 spots left and I was number 6 on the list. But alas, in the way that the universe works, I did not get the class. The first 4 people on the wait list were present and took the remaining spaces. So I took my backpack and left.
On the way to my car, I could not help but feel disappointed for giving myself the false expectation of things finally going my way. The car ride home was pretty somber, I think I just needed to feel sad and mourn my disappointment. My mindset changed once I got home and parked my car. I realized that I could choose to remain angry and sulk about the situation or I could use this moment as a time to reflect on the silver lining. Maybe the universe was saving me from the stress from taking chemistry and physics. Maybe the universe was opening doors of opportunity. Maybe this was the universe’s way of telling me that there some plans you have to wait for. Feeling sad absolutely sucks but nothing good happens when you use that sadness to justify not doing anything. You must use this as motivation to seek out new opportunities and work towards the plans you have in mind.
That’s my spiel for this week. It’s okay to feel disappointment but it is important to keep calm, stay strong, and still work hard to achieve your plans. Take time to reflect on yourself, make the changes that will make you a better person. It is important to understand that there are many things in life that are out of your control and things don’t always go as planned. Just keep your head up and know that the universe has a plan for you. In the words of Aaron Burr of the Broadway musical Hamilton, “I am the only thing in life I can control”.